Updated: May 25
I LIVED WITH THESE DEBILITATING BELIEFS THAT I WAS WEAK, I WAS LOST, I WAS IN A RUT, I WAS QUIET, I WASN’T GOOD ENOUGH, AND THAT I WAS THE VICTIM.
These beliefs were so wired into my brain that soon enough they became my reality.
A few years ago now, just after I left school when my “reality” was just finally setting in, I got a job. A job with someone I thought I could trust, a job where I felt welcome & needed…
…Until the second the day when I started to feel uneasy about the person I was working for, I started to feel like something was not quite right, but I kept telling myself it was me, it was my insecurities that I had grown up with that was making me feel this way.
But it wasn’t me.
This person took control of my body, and in the process, destroyed any innocence which was once there.
They told me everything I had already told myself, and extinguished my light.
My soul and energy for life was gone. When I went to the police, they told me I wasn’t the first victim of this person, but when it came time to face it and get justice for myself, I couldn’t.
I let this person get away with it, and I told myself I was too weak to be able to cope with this. I lived with a feeling of disgust in myself and fear of everything and everyone around me.
After a year and a half I got the call; the call to say this criminal had taken someone else’s innocence. And I blamed myself for it. They needed my evidence, they needed me to relive everything that had happened. So, I did. And that was the first step to gaining closure and feeling able to move forward.
FAST FORWARD 3 YEARS AND I’M NOW TELLING A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT STORY!
Something snapped inside of me, the real me snapped. It wasn’t until I reached out for help and began talking about what happened that the healing process began. I started to rewrite the story that I told myself about who I was and what I was capable of, and this helped pull me out of the internal hell I was living in which was holding me back from everything I wanted in my life!
Since joining the ZHT herd 12 months ago, I have achieved things I didn’t think I ever could!
I’ve jumped out of a plane, and I’ve walked across 680 degree coals and found the true me on the other side.
I’m so much stronger mentally & physically, I’m happy in myself, I’m confident, I’m in the best state of my life.
I’m living that extraordinary life I have always dreamed of.
I used to let my pain define me, I used to let my mindset control me. I used to think “Why me? What would life be like if this never happened to me?”
When I broke free of my limiting beliefs and realised that I am not defined by my past, nor could I blame myself for what had happened, I could stand up and become the person I am today.
MY NEW BELIEF IS I AM STRONG. I AM STRONGER THAN ANY STORY I TELL MYSELF, ANY CIRCUMSTANCE, AND ANY FORCE WHICH TRIES TO TEAR ME DOWN.
I have fought hard through the struggles to get to where I am today, and as a result of this, I have found my purpose in helping women uncover their extraordinary selves and breaking free from their own internal hell.
- Erin (Lil Boss)